I think the strangest feeling overcame me today. Was it anxiety, fear, happiness, love, shock, wonder, amazement, confusion, or maybe pain? Actually, it was all of those things combined. I think the proper word for those mixed emotions is BITTERSWEET. I looked at my beautiful daughter, gave her a kiss, and teared up. It is possible she will be our only child for just a few more hours. Even if this pregnancy continues outside of tonight, or I carry through the weekend, Ava will remain an only child for a short period of time. What an odd feeling. For nine months I have been pumped up about the thought of three children and that thought has not changed... Just for a fleeting moment, I realized the biggest change to the Bumgarners is truly going to happen. Ready or not!
I love you Ava, you will always hold a special place in Mommy's heart. There is something to be said about being the first born. God put you there for a reason. You will not only make the best big sister ever you are going to be a great teacher, role model, and best friend to your siblings.
I couldn't be prouder...
You will all do wonderfully! Life is certainly going to change...but don't worry, your heart just grows bigger and bigger :)
ReplyDeleteBeautifully said. You do have big changes in store. I know they will be so wonderful.
ReplyDeleteLove expands, and change is life. Much love and many good thoughts go with you on this journey.
ReplyDeleteAwwhh so sweet! I was really worried when I was pregnant with Eli that I could love another baby as much as I love Isaac and it happened.. your heart just makes room... and more room!
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